Oh, dear! I knew this day would come but I put it off. Then I put it off again. And again. *sigh* Gary Vee says we should document our days. (*language alert on Gary Vee*) It's a way potential customers, readers, clients, etc. can get to know us. The time is now. I don't like listening to recordings of my own voice. There's a reason I write and that's because I don't speak very well when I talk aloud. My words come out clearly enough but sometimes the meaning is lost and I ramble a lot. So if you understand, or if you aren't bothered by such things, then by all means please continue on...
A Little History
I was singing on stage as a 4-5-year-old child in churches all over southern Louisiana. Singing in front of people is nothing new to me. But speaking to them is totally different in my head. The song is already written. You memorize the words and the tune, then regurgitate them. It isn't necessarily easy. But back then my memory was tons better and I didn't worry so much about what people thought. I sang because I loved it.
As a youth, I was part of a concert choir and a school choir. We did two musical productions each year. I tried out for a speaking role once because I felt like I should. I got a small part and decided after it was all over I was too nervous to try doing it again.
Fast Forward To The More Recent Past
Our family worked with some local theater groups from 2010 until 2017. I didn't mind reading for an absent actor or actress. But I refused every time the director tried to urge me to get onstage. I like the theater. I think it's great fun working with all the people involved. I just can't retain all those words and still manage to keep up with my day to day life. One would suffer and neither should have to. Besides my jitters are so terrible now. When I'm singing alone, I shake so badly, I'm amazed people can't hear it in my voice. Well, that's what they tell me anyway. I also get nervous when I'm performing in a group even when I'm not the focus of the attention.
I'm saying all that to say this...
Being Myself In The Present
I don't like speaking in front of people. But I will do my best because writing is something I have a passion about. I know I'll make mistakes. I know it will take time to get the feel for it. I've come to terms with those things. My writing is fun and I love it. I want to share it with others.
I love connecting with others. I'm just better at doing that through chat messages, especially at first. (Though to be honest, there have been a few faux pas in that area, too. I wonder if they could've been avoided but...perhaps it's best they weren't.)
Here's what you can expect from my future videos:
No photos today. No challenge post today. Maybe no challenge post tomorrow, either! But you can be certain I am not giving up.
Melody Kittles writes fantasy fiction under the name Robin McElveen. She loves God, her family, the arts, a warm cup of coffee or tea, visiting friends, and collecting coffee & Pusheen items.
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